Thursday market yesterday—stopped by while shopping with Julianne. We ran into Dillon and Brandon and ended up staying with them for most of Market, watching them skate. I talked to Rachel for like a millisecond while she was on top of the parking structure. I thought about going up, but then it was like nahhh what's the point. I called Christian later on though and he told me he looked for me when he'd heard Rachel had seen me, and I felt like I should've gone up anyway because I hadn't seen those kids in weeks.
I talked to my mom this morning, and we both decided that if I stay in tonight to prep for tomorrow's SAT, I can stay out all night on Saturday. That'd be perfect if the GITD party follows through, and even if it doesn't, I still have Illuminate to look forward to :) I still have to hit up Jamie and see if she wants to come to Tiana's. I was talking to Victoria last night when the photoshoot came up, and I decided I really want to do my photoshoot with Jamie. I can't call her though because her phone only has texting, and it'd be beyond awkward for me to call Brandi or Kurt to reach her, so I just asked Victoria to talk to her for me. I hope she'll have time sometime soon.
It's between Tiana's and Illuminate at this point. I mean, the Hudson! How could I pass that up? But I know Haream's gonna be mixing with Connor, and that kid hasn't been down since forever. We talked about it last night, and I told him I might just go to Illuminate instead. It was like wtf so I just asked him to come with me. He said he'd be down to go since he and his friend Michael (a.k.a. the Valley Connor) are splitting driving time from the Valley down to Fullerton, so I have to call him tonight and decide what we want to do. I still think Tiana's would be a better idea because there are gonna be a million raves from now until next year, and I know how rarely he comes down to Fullerton to see everyone. But at the same time, there's gonna be a billion more parties to mix.
Scott called me last night! His number came up and I was just like $#%@^&! I haven't talked to him in months, so it kinda made my night when he called. We only talked for about half an hour though because someone was on the other line, then I had to go eat dinner, then I forgot to call him back :( But I swear I'm gonna make theee hugest effort to see him before he hops on a plane to Korea for the summer. I guess I kinda really do miss last year when Scott, Paul, Lindsay and I were like the Fearsome Foursome. We hung out like everryy fucken weekend; you couldn't find one of us without the others. Things changed so quickly though, and now Scott and I are the only ones who still keep in contact. But it's better to have one than none at all, right?
So I've decided I'm more than relieved that school is over, mostly because I can't fucken stand Rosary. It's such a surprise when I think back, especially since this time last year I was madly in love with the school. I mean, I fucken cried when my mom told me I might have to transfer out. I thought of how it would be to leave Jackie and Lindsay, how I'd have to start all over, and how much I'd miss everyone. Now it's completely different: Jackie and Lindsay aren't even in my life anymore, all I want is a fresh start, and I don't even know what to think about everyone or what everyone thinks about me. I just wish the thought of Rosary and everyone in it didn't make me sick to my stomach, but I guess I did this to myself. I mean, I chose to coop myself up in the lab everyday rather than going down to the table and making an effort to be social. I chose to be a bitch and lose all of my close friends, and I chose to continue being a bitch and pushing all of my other friends away. I only have myself to blame. Next year will be bettter, I swear.
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hey izzzyy
its scott (:
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